Tuesday, October 31, 2006

Monday Madness

From Monday Madness blog
October 30

1. Small town or big city?
I like both, I like to comfort of a small town, however I don’t like it lack of diversity. I like a city for all its variety; I like the theaters, the restaurants, the museums, the art galleries and the fact you can be yourself, but I don’t like the crime.

2. Do you have a favorite childhood memory, and if so, would you share it?
Summers at Lake Winnisquam in New Hampshire and catching fireflies. Winters sliding in our backyard.

3. How do you calm down when something has really upset and/or angered you? Do you swallow it? Call a friend and rant? Go in the bathroom and cry? Punch a wall? Walk around muttering to yourself, complete with scary hand gestures?
It depends, if it is my boss that gets me upset, I swallow it. If a mutual friends gets me mad I might a call a friend. I have been know to run to the bathroom and have a good cry. Or I might walk around muttering at times, especially if no one is around to hear me.

4. What attracts [sic] you to memes?
Reading other people answers and comparing them to mine. Beside it’s cheaper than seeing a psychologist.

5. How reliant are you on computers to get through your day?
Very, at work I am very depended on the computer and at home I use it to keep in touch with friends and also people who are requesting help from the support groups. I also use it for my process my photographs.

6. In a crisis, are you calm or do you panic?
I like to think that I am calm, cool and collective in a crisis, but I think I tend to panic somewhat and feel helpless.

TMI Tuesday

From TMI Tuesday blog

1. In a social setting, are you more of a talker or a listener?
I am a good listener, if somewhat shy.

2. Do you take compliments well?
No I don’t, I get flustered. I don’t know how to reply.

3. Are you judgmental?
No, I try to avoid being judgmental, we never know all of the detail of why someone behaves like they do.

4. Do you like to pursue or be pursued?
I liked being pursued, see the answer to #1, I am not an aggressive type person. Maybe that’s why I don’t have many dates

5. Do you think more about the past, present or future?
I live for the present and plan for the future.

Bonus (as in optional): Who do you hate?
I don’t hate, it is a waste of time and energy.

Bonus Bonus (it too is optional): Use three words to describe yourself.
Shy, tall and blonde

Monday, October 30, 2006

Manic Monday

From Manic Monday Blog

What’s the longest road trip you’ve ever taken?
It’s a toss up between when I was little we use to visit all the Civil War battlefields. One year we drove down to Key West all the way on U.S.1 (There were no interstates then.). Or when I graduated from college three of us drove out to Bismarck, ND (Non-stop from CT in 32 ½ hrs) and then down to Fort Collins, CO when we mooched off my parents for a couple of weeks while my father taught at Colorado State University. Or when in 1999 we drove down the Pacific coast from Seattle to San Francisco.

Do you like traveling in the car?
I don’t mind it, if I am driving the most I can drive is three hours but if we have drivers to rotate it can do at least 8 hrs.

What do you do to keep yourself (or your kids, if you have them) entertained while on a car trip?
I just watch the scenery go by, it is so interesting to watch how they live in different places. It is never the same, it’s always varying.

What’s the oddest thing in your glove box right now?
Nothing much out of the ordinary, just the car registration, insurance card, owners manual, first aid kit, pocket knife and a flashlight.

Sunday, October 29, 2006

Tara’s Crossing

I went to the play last night not knowing what to expect and came away surprised that I enjoyed the play. It was a simple set; a table, a couple of chairs and a cot. Out of that the actors and actresses were able to mold a moving and memorable play.
The play starts off with Tara getting an autograph from a TV star (Judith Bright) and she tells the TV star her life story in a series of flashbacks to Guyana and in the immigration detention center. The play deals with Tara as she tries to entire the U.S. and seek political asylum. The play takes place while she is in the immigration detention center, while there she tells her story to her lawyer Barry. In the scene of the trailer, Tara is telling Judith what “his” life was like when “he” was eight in Guyana and all the bullying that she got growing up.
In the play I saw snippet’s of my life growing up, not the violence, but in having to hide who I was because I learned that it was one secret that I had keep. One scene that struck close to home was where Tara was crying in bed, I remember the many times that I cried myself to sleep when I was little praying that when I woke up I would be a girl. There was a lump in my throat sitting there while watching the play during that scene.
For a friend who was there with me, it struck way too close home; she had to leave for a while because it had just too many bad memories for her. You see, her father beat her repeatedly because she wasn’t manly enough, she was arrested because she dared to dress in public and she had to flee her home state of Virginia and come north for asylum.
This is a very moving play, not only for someone who is trans, but also for others who want to try and understand a small glimpse of what it is like growing up trans. Please, if the play comes to a college or theater near you, take the time and go see it, you will be glad that you did.

Thursday, October 26, 2006

Transgender Day of Remembrance

Tonight at the Board meeting for Connecticut TransAdvocacy Coalition we talked about our plans for the Transgender Day of Remembrance on Monday November 20. Right now our plans are to hold a short candlelight vigil at 6:30 on the steps of Hartford City Hall and read off the names of those who have been murdered this year. Then we will go over to the MCC Church at the Episcopal Church of the Good Shepherd at 155 Wyllys Street in Hartford where we will hold a short service at 7:15. This years theme is “Carrying the Flame Forward” and will focus on the next generation of Trans-Youth.
This is a world wide event, I ask you to look up a Day of Remembrance memorial service in your area and attend the service.

Thursday's Poem

Climbing the Mountain

I walk across the plateau to the face of the cliff,
Looking up I think that I’ll never make it.
It looks insurmountable, a formable wall in my journey.
I see others look up at the wall, shake their heads and walk away.
Deep inside me that inner voices calls.
I know that I have climbed others and have always made it,
But this looks different,
I know that I will have to summon my courage.
The plateau is comfortable, but my inner voice calls me.
I reach out and find a handhold, then another.
Slowly I pull myself up.
One handhold and one toehold after another.
Looking back from where I came, I can see the hills and valleys.
They all seemed like they were mountains and canyons then.
Now from this vantage point, I laugh at them.
Up I climb, always knowing that I may fall before I reach the top.
There will be no sage or wise man at the top,
Only the wisdom gained along the way.
I realize I have come a long ways but I still have far to go.
That inner voice calls me.
One handhold and one toehold after another I climb.
I know that at the top I will find another cliff,
And another mountain to climb after that.

Wow! This is Amazing!

This article is about people who cannot recognize faces; including their own face, their mother's, wife, girlfriends, family members. Here are some excepts from the article.

Face Blind
Wired News
Oct 26, 2006
....TOM UGLOW, A GRAPHIC DESIGNER in London, didn't have a problem perceiving that it was a girl watching him across the bar. Her blond hair had a nice sheen. She seemed pretty. Uglow ordered another beer, downed it, and walked her way. He was about to introduce himself when she cut him off.
"Hi, Tom," she said, no longer smiling. "Why were you making eyes at me?"
"Damn," he thought. "This isn't going as planned."
Her voice sounded familiar. He searched her face but couldn't place her. This happened more than he liked to admit.
"How've you been?" he asked, casually trying to fish for a clue as to who she was.
"Better now that we're broken up."
Ah! It was his ex-girlfriend. Once he'd had a moment to process her voice, he was able to place her. They had dated for a year. Definitely not a good person to be hitting on. It was a problem: Every time he saw a face, it felt like it was for the first time......

.....BILL CHOISSER WAS 48 when he first recognized himself. He was standing in his bathroom, looking in the mirror when it happened. A strand of hair fell down – he had been growing it out for the first time. The strand draped toward a nose. He understood that it was a nose, but then it hit him forcefully that it was his nose. He looked a little higher, stared into his own eyes, and saw … himself.

.....MORDECHAI HOUSMAN, A GENIAL, portly Hasidic Jew, is playing Minesweeper on his computer at home in Brooklyn. One of his three young sons sits next to him – though Housman isn't sure which.
"Who are you?" Housman finally asks with a smile.
"I'm Abraham, Dad," Abraham says. The 6-year-old has heard this question before and thinks his father is just kidding. It's like a family joke. He doesn't understand that his dad really can't tell him apart from other kids on the street.

.....In 2005, the two conducted a study to determine the extent of prosopagnosia in the general population. They assessed 1,600 people online, running them through a face-recognition test the researchers had invented, and found that 32 had severely impaired face recognition. At the same time, a German researcher tested 680 high school and college students and identified 17 prosopagnosics. Both studies suggested a prevalence of roughly 2 percent. If the ratio held, it would mean that nearly 6 million people in the US are face blind.......

....Duchaine's questions touch on some fundamental social and cultural issues. For instance, what would it mean if there were a particular part of the brain devoted to recognizing gender? Bill Choisser reports that he has more trouble perceiving women's faces, and that could be one of the reasons he's gay. Another prosopagnosic says that his inability to distinguish between men and women explains his bisexuality. Is it possible that our sexuality is influenced by the wiring in the face-processing system?.....

The article is really fasinating and it is very interesting, if you got the time I would recoment reading it.

Wednesday, October 25, 2006

Gay Marriage Advocates Turn To N.J. Legislature

by 365Gay.com

Trenton, New Jersey) Wednesday's New Jersey Supreme Court ruling throws the issue of same-sex marriage into the lap of the Legislature and LGBT civil rights groups say they won't rest until marriage equality legislation is passed.

The Supreme Court said that the state constitution was not violated by denying same-sex couples marriage licenses but it said they must be accorded all of the rights and responsibilities marriage accords opposite-sex couples. (story)

The ruling allows the Legislature to either enact a law allowing those rights to be accorded through marriage or civil unions.

Within minutes of the release of the written ruling three state legislators announced they would bring in a gay marriage bill.

Assemblyman Wilfredo Caraballo, the Assembly Speaker Pro Tem, joined by Assemblyman Brian Stack and Assemblyman Reed Gusciora, said they will introduce marriage-equality legislation shortly after the Legislature resumes.

"The bottom line here is that the entire court said that there must be a remedy for the inequality that bars same-sex couples from marriage," said David Buckel, Marriage Project Director who argued the case before the high court as lead counsel for Lambda Legal.

"The question for the Legislature is an easy one: whether to follow through on the support of the majority of voters in this State to allow their gay friends and neighbors to marry, including over 20,000 committed same-sex couples raising more than 12,000 children."

"Our community has a stunning track record, with victory after victory, when our fate is our own hands rather than in a court's," said Garden State Equality Chair Steven Goldstein.

"So right here and now, without wasting a moment, Garden State Equality kicks off its Campaign for a Marriage Equality Statute."

A broad loose coalition of 268 community leaders has called on the legislature to legalize same-sex marriage. They include 84 African-American community leaders, 68 Latino/a community leaders and 54 labor union leaders and organizers.

“Today’s New Jersey Supreme Court ruling recognizes the equal needs of same-sex couples and their families," said National Gay and Lesbian Task Force executive director Matt Foreman. " It is now up to the Legislature to implement the court’s decision by amending the state’s marriage laws to include same-sex couples; nothing less will suffice

The case was closely watched by LGBT advocates across the country. Unlike Massachusetts, the only state that currently allows same-sex marriage, New Jersey law does not bar the issuing of marriage licenses to people from out-of-state whose marriages would not be recognized in their home states.

Had the court mandated same-sex marriage hundreds of gay and lesbian couples would have gone to the Garden State to wed.

A win for gay marriage would also have helped in other states where same-sex marriage cases are currently being heard by lower courts.

"This is a bittersweet decision," said Marriage Equality USA Executive Director Davina Kotulski.

In New York, where that state's Supreme Court ruled in July that the state "Constitution does not compel the recognition of marriages between members of the same sex" (story) the New Jersey ruling is seen as an improvement.

"As a result of today’s decision in New Jersey, New York falls even further behind its neighbors in protecting same-sex couples and their families," said Alan Van Capelle, Executive Director, of Empire State Pride Agenda.

"With the exception of Pennsylvania, every U.S. state and Canadian province bordering New York has passed some type of comprehensive measure to protect gay and lesbian families. Protections for our families in New York are woefully inadequate and we are being left out in the cold to fend for ourselves. It’s time for Albany to step up and start leading."

Opponents to same-sex marriage also were unhappy with the ruling.

"This is a wake-up call for people who believe that marriage doesn't need constitutional protection," Glen Lavy, senior counsel for the Alliance Defense Fund, which has opposed same-sex marriage in numerous court cases nationwide told the Associated Press.

Bill Donohue, president of the Catholic League, called the ruling "a plus" on the premise it would stir up resentment of "arrogant judges" and boost conservative election prospects.

This Commentary is So Right On Target

Monday, October 23, 2006

Hippie Girl

Here as promised..... The Flower Child. Complete with Daisies in her hair.
The theme of the Pioneer Awards Banquet was the Sixties so I went as a Flower Child Hippie. (We picked the daisies along the way.)

Boy, does this picture make me look fat! (I think it time to seriously think about dieting)

I want to thank my freind "R" for sending this picture.

I’m Back!

I stayed at a Bed and Breakfast instead of a motel because I like the feel of the B&B’s. You go to a motel and all you get is a room, but a B&B you get to meet people from all over. You get to talk to interesting people over breakfast or in the common room, people that you never would have met otherwise. This year there was a couple from Denmark, a couple from Vermont and a guy from Maryland along with Fantasia Fair attendee’s from Virginia, New Jersey, Illinois, Texas and Massachusetts. At the B&B where I stayed every day at five they put out wine and cheese, which made a nice social hour to sit around and talk.

Also this year they had a couple from Iowa make reservations for two nights, well on the first night they walked in the common room and froze, turned around and walked out without saving a word. The next morning they didn’t eat breakfast and I heard them talking to the B&B owners saying that they couldn’t stay because of “Those…. those people, we didn’t know that those people would be here!” I feel that it was their loss; they could have used that opportunity to talk to us, to get to know us, instead of running off like we had the plague. The owners told us afterward that it was only the second time in ten years that someone left early.

Now for the photographs from the week……

Sunset Over Provincetown from North Truro

Race Point Lighthouse

Race Point Sand Dunes

Seashells at Race Point Low Tide

Old Pier in Provincetown

For more pictures visit my Photo Album here.

Lastly, one of the B&Bs in Provincetown has this pond out in front with Barbies and Kens having a pool party.

Manic Monday

From the Manic Monday Blog

Do you like your given name?
No, that is why I am going to change it legally to Diana.

Do you know how your parents chose your name?
Yes, they named me after the doctor that delivered me and my middle name is named after a TV cowboy hero (Thanks Bro, at least it wasn’t Hop Along Cassidy)

Do you have any nicknames?

How do you feel about some of the more unusual names that have become popular lately? Do you think an odd name carries a stigma as the child grows up?
I don’t like unusual names; no one ever knows how to pronounce them correctly. I think it hurts them later in life. Also I don’t like using initials.

Friday, October 20, 2006

Day Seven of Vacation

It’s a rainy Friday and not much going on today that I want to attend, so I have a chance to update my blog.

Monday night – was the Namoli Brennet concert, I thought the concert was great we had dinner before the concert (Chinese, which I don’t particularly like). She has written all of the songs that she played for us, I thought the songs were fresh and her style vibrant and after the concert I bought one of her CD’s.

Tuesday – in the morning I attended a seminar called “The Politics of Passing” it “examined the issue of “passing” within the transgender community” and it was giving by a Ph.D. Candidate in the American Culture Studies Program from Bowling Green State University.
The noon keynote address was “What is the Future of ‘T’” and the talk was given by Dotti Berry and her partner Robynne. Afterward they had a discussion group that I found entirely fascinating, they talked about driving around the country in a van marked Two Women and a Poddle
That night they had the “Pioneer Awards” banquet, the theme was the “Sixties” and I went dressed as a hippie flower child (I hope to have a picture to post once I get back.).

Wednesday – in the afternoon I took part in a “Poetry Slam” and I got a lot of favorable comments about my poems.
That night they had the annual fashion show, I only stayed the first half, it was hot in the theater, all of the noise and lights were getting to me so I left early. Many times here I have complained about the same thing, I just don’t know why they need the music so loud (just that Boom, Boom, Boom… gets to me.) or they need the strobe lights, it just gives me a headache.

Thursday – I went to a seminar given by Richard Docter Ph.D. who …is a clinical psychologist and Professor of Psychology (Emeritus) at California State University, Northridge. He is the author of Transvestites and Transsexuals (1988) and of a series of papers on the measurement of gender identity and gender role…. (Fantasia Fair)about "Harry Benjamin: The man an his ideas". In the afternoon I went to a seminar that he gave on Christine Jorgensen. Both of the lectures were excellent, I love to here about the early transgender history. I think that it is important not to loose our history, we should be proud of who we are and where our roots are.

Monday, October 16, 2006

Day Three of Vacation

This morning I went with three friends out to the North Truro Lighthouse and I wandered around taking photos of it.
Then afterward the spouse of one of my friends suggested we go over to the Atlantic Spice Co store; what a big mistake! When I walked in the door and the smell of all those spices hit me, I knew I was going to buy something and I was right. I don’t want to go into details because I got some things for Christmas, but they have just about every type of spice you could imagine along with teas, nuts, dried fruit and Potpourri. They also had kitchen utensils, spice jars and tins. I know my car is going to be smelling of spices all the way home!

Guilty or Not Guilty?

From Fleur de Lisa blog....
1. Dated outside your race? Not guilty and I don’t think this is a guilty or not guilty question
2. Singing in the shower? Guilty.
3. Spit in someone’s drink? Not guilty.
4. Played with Barbies? Not guilty, but I wished that I could have..
5. Made someone cry? Guilty and I am not proud of it.
6. Opened your Christmas presents early? Not guilty
7. Lied to a friend? Guilty, I denied that I was trans
8. Watched and cried while watching a soap opera? Not guilty
9. Played a computer game for more than 5 hours? Not guilty
10. Ran through the sprinklers naked? Not guilty
11. Ate food that fell on the floor? Not guilty.
12. Went outside naked? Not guilty
13. Been on stage? Guilty, I was on a panel discussion..
14. Been on stage naked or close to it? Not guilty!
15. Been in a parade? Guilty, as a cub scout and in a Pride parade.
16. Been in a school play? Not guilty
17. Drank beer? Guilty
18. Gotten detention? Not guilty.
19. Been on a cruise? Not guilty, I would like to go on a windjammer cruise.
20. Broken into a house? Not guilty
21. Gotten a tattoo? Not guilty.
22. Gotten piercing? Not guilty, but I want to get my ears pierced when I transition
23. Gotten into a fist fight? Guiltyi broke up a fight between a senior and a freshman in high school
24. Gotten into a shouting match? Guilty
25. Swallowed sea/pool water? Guilty
26. Spun yourself in circles to get dizzy on purpose? Guilty
27. Laughed so hard it hurt? Guilty
28. Tripped on your own feet? Guilty.
29. Cried yourself to sleep? Guilty, being trans is hard
30. Cried in public? Not guilty.
31. Thrown up in public? Not Guilty
32. Lied to your parents? Guilty
33. Skipped class? Not guilty
34. Cried so hard you threw up? Not guilty

Sunday, October 15, 2006

Day One of Vacation

I made it up to Provincetown without encountering any major traffic jams and settled in at the B&B. Last night I went to some friends motel room and had supper with them, their motel room is on the bay over looking Provincetown and is right on the water. I took some pictures of Provincetown at sunset.
This morning I went for a walk with a friend to Race Point Lighthouse and got some great shots of the lighthouse and the dunes. Now I’m off to register for Fantasia Fair.

Friday, October 13, 2006

I am off to P’town for Transweek

I will be leaving first thing tomorrow morning and it is a four hour+ drive up to Provincetown on the Cape. Saturday and Sunday are the last days of Women’s Week and Sunday is the beginning of Fantasia Fair, which runs to following Sunday the 22nd.
Hopefully, I will be able to post photos from the B&B guest computer. I plan on taking some day trips photograph the lighthouses in the area (Race Point and North Truro) and anything else that catches my eye.
If you want a sneak peak of P’town here is their Web Camera.

Three Part Series on Trans Advocacy

A CT TransAdvocacy three part series at the Charter Oak Cultural Center, Hartford, CT

Part 1: Crossing Borders: How We View Those Who Transverse as if They Transgress On October 10th at 7 pm engage in an open discussion with a panel comprising an Immigrant Rights activist, Trans person, Queer member of the Muslim Community and an activist member of ADAPT American Disabled for Accessible PublicTransit discuss their journeys in crossing physical, internal, social and religious borders.
(Duh…. Here I am passing out the flyers, sending out notices to the newspapers and I space out and miss it.)

Part 2: TransAmerica Viewing and Discussion: On October 17th, view this Academy-Award nominated film in a new way. Engage in a discussion following the screening led by Trans activist, Jerimarie Liesegang, about how Hollywood, and society in general, help to create stereotypes that lead to myths and misconceptions that stigmatize and marginalize a community that is beautiful, rich and diverse.

Part 3: Tara's Crossing: On October 28th see Tara's Crossing, a new play by Emmy-nominated writer Jeffrey Solomon, recounts a transgendered asylum-seeker's remarkable flight from Guyana and her uphill battle to prove her claims of persecution from within the confines of U.S. Immigration Detention. The play is one of the first ever to deal with the subject of political asylum for sexual minority refugees and was inspired by interviews with asylum-seekers from around the world.

Location: Charter Oak Cultural Center, Hartford, CT.


Q1 - Holiday Decorations: We have a lot of 'holidays' here in the U.S., including New Year's Day, Valentine's Day, Easter, Memorial Day, Independence Day, Labor Day, Halloween, Thanksgiving, and Christmas. Do you ever decorate your home or office space for a holiday? If so, which ones, and how far do you go with your decorating?

I just put up a tree for Christmas and do not do anything for the other holidays. I do have a New Years Eve party though.

Q2 - Birth: Were you born in a hospital or somewhere else?

I was born in a hospital not too far from where I live now.

Q3 - Shoes: Do you wear shoes inside your home?

I wear sneakers most of the time when I am home.

Q4 - Congressional Pages: The United States Congress employs approximately 100 teenagers from around the country as pages who serve as messengers and who perform administrative tasks for members of Congress. Would you allow your teenage child to be a Congressional page?

If I had kids I would allow them to be a Congressional page; I think the advantages out weigh the risks. I do think they should raise the age for pages to 18

Thursday, October 12, 2006

Thursday Poem

The Word Spoken

The word has been spoken.
The bridges burned.
I can only go forward.
To the beat of a different drummer.
The regrets put behind.
What lies before me, I cannot say.
Hope is eternal.
To the light of a new day.
I cast my lot.
I pray to see the way.
I will not perish.
Come what may.
I will survive.

I think that this poem fits in well with yesterday being “National Coming Out Day” and also because I came out to my cousins this past weekend.

Been Busy the Last Couple of Days

I have been busy the last couple of days running around, last night I did an Outreach at a local Catholic women’s college (St. Joseph’s College), tonight I am going to an Awards Banquet for a non-profit organization (Connecticut Women’s Education and Legal Fund) and tomorrow night I going to have to start packing for my vacation.
I will try to post “Thursday Poem” after work.

Lizzie Quizzie

From Stopping Traffic blog...

1) When was the last time you truly watched at a sunset?
Everytime time I get a chance. Saturday as we cursed around in my cousin boat and Sunday on the way home.

2) What are you most obcessive about?
Human Rights.

3) Last coffee/tea/etc order from a coffee house?
Decafe Earl Gray Tea from a coffee house.

4) Any plans for Halloween?
Hibernate. I just don’t like handing out candy and getting dressed up in a custume. Maybe if I had a really good custume I would do get dressed up.

5) What kind of shampoo do you like?
Store brand.

6) What do you do with your change?
I save it for the vending machine at work :-( where I eat too masny snacks.

7) What do you usually do/eat at lunchtime?I go home for lunch and have a sandwhich and relax for a few minutes before I go back to the rat race.

8) When was the last time you called someone for help? What was it for?
When I bought the baseboard electric heaters for our cottage, I needed a longer car so one of my technician picked them up in his pick-up truck.

9) If you could have one TOY for Christmas, what would it be?
A new laptop computer.

10) How many people have you currently not forgiven for something/do you hold a grudge against?
-0- I din’t hold grudges.

Monday, October 09, 2006

Manic Monday

From Lisa’s Manic Monday meme

If you were to say that there is a period of your life that you dream about the most, when would it be?
Mostly I dream about the future and what life will be like.

How often do you change the sheets on your bed?
I try to change them weekly (Try is the key word, sometimes I get busy and miss a week.)

If you could wake up tomorrow in your own bed, but in another place in the world (indoors or outdoors), where would you like it to be?
Probably where I went this weekend or some other photogenic locations

If you had to name the worst song to wake up to in the morning, what would it be?
Jimmie Hendrix’s Purple Haze.

Bonus: (As in optional) If you were to have Shakespeare to dinner tonight and could invite one other person from history, who would you pick?
I don’t know, maybe James Joyce.

Am I a Worrier? Or, How the Coming Out Came Out.

My brother says that I inherited my worrying from my mother; I think he may be right. But I would rather be prepared for he worst and hope for the best.
I had planned on telling them all at once, but it didn’t work out that way, because of the long driving time to get up there one of my cousins turned in early. So I told my other cousin and his wife Saturday night and I couldn’t ask for a better reaction from both of them, it was total support. In the morning after breakfast we gathered up the clan; I told my cousin kids, my other cousin and his girlfriend, once again it was total support. I couldn’t ask for a better family! We then talked about what it is like for me being a transsexual and what are my plans are for the future, then they all hugged me and I had tears in my eye (Just like I do now writing this.).
So I couldn’t ask for a better birthday weekend.
The cottage that we stayed in was fantastic! I was up there about ten years ago when their son got married, but I didn’t remember it all that well. They have two cottages, one that they rent out (Which we stayed in.) and the other that they live in during the summer.

This is the view of front of the cottage as you drive up. the inside is all pine and is post and beam construction, it has four bedrooms (two of which are lofts), two full baths, a kitchen with a dishwasher and a gas stove.

This is the living room and one of the loft bedrooms over looks the room. Isn’t it fantastic, it is so rustic.

This is the bedroom that stayed in; it is the other loft, what a beautiful view to wake up to.

And this is the lake side of the cottage.

The foliage wasn’t that great, it wasn’t a good year for “Leaf Peeping” heavy rains the week before knocked a lot of the color off the trees. Also a number of trees hadn’t changed yet and were still green, but it still was beautiful.

Sunday morning we attempted to climb Blue Hill, not all of us made it to the top (I didn’t) because we got the trails mixed up and we only reached the base of the summit.

This is a picture of the mountain that I took the day before when we were cursing around the lake.

From the base of Blue Hill Mountain with Mattie leading the way.

This is the view from up near the top of the mountain. Off in the distance is Cadillac Mountain in Arcadia National Park. This is a panoramic composite of three photographs.

Here are some more of the photographs that I took; more are on my web album.

P.S. I just found out that Wednesday is "National Coming Out Day", I guess I did it a couple of days early.

Friday, October 06, 2006


From Belicove Blog

Q1 - Grocery Shopping: When you go to the grocery store, do you create a shopping list beforehand or do you buy according to a routine or whatever suits your tastes?
I usually have a shopping list, but I also do buy on impulse or if it is on sale.

Q2 - Awards: If you did the work, which award would you like to receive: The Noble Prize in Physiology or Medicine, Physics, Chemistry, Economics, Literature, or Peace?
I would like to get the Noble Prize in Peace. A close second is in Physics.

Q3 - Politics: Do you plan on voting in this November's elections? If so, and if a congressional seat is up for grabs in your area, do you view your ballot as a vote "against" the President, rather than a vote "for" him, or will your vote not take into account the President's performance?
Yes, I will be voting in the November elections and I will not be voting for or against the President. I will be voting on issues that I feel are important to me; the war in Iraq, energy, health insurance and the economy.
I am working as a volunteer for the Lamont senatorial campaign because I feel the Senator Lieberman does not represent my views in the issues that I feel important to me.

Q4 - Royalty: If you could be King or Queen of any country, which country would you choose and why? (Sorry but Disneyland is not a country.)
I would like to be Queen of some Micronesia Island. Isn’t it obvious, to lay out on some South Pacific island and be waited on hand and foot.

Thursday, October 05, 2006

Personality Test

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You are neither a subdued loner nor a jovial chatterbox. You enjoy time with others but also time alone. You can be very easily upset, even by what most people consider the normal demands of living. People consider you to be extremely sensitive and emotional. Novelty, variety, and change spice up your life and make you a curious, imaginative, and creative person. You have some concern with others' needs, and are generally pleasant, sympathetic, and cooperative. You like to live for the moment and do what feels good now. Your work tends to be careless and disorganized.

Well folks, did it hit the mark? I don't think so; I do not think that I am neurotic or not conscientious. I think the test was way off the mark on those two.

Thursday’s Poem

To Be Counted

There is a right of passage.
That we all share in common.
Whether or not you are gay,
Or lesbian,
Or bisexual,
Or transgendered.
When at one time or other,
You must step forward,
And declare,
What your inner voice tells you.
To step over the line,
To be counted.
To stand tall.

Knock, knock! Who’s there?

Last night at 1:30am the doorbell rang. When I looked out the window, there were two police cars out in front. When I opened the door they said my garage door was open and the light flashing, agh….. It seemed a neighbor saw the light flashing and was concerned and called the police. The door must have got stuck when I closed the door after the Retirement Seminar. I closed the garage door and tried to go back to sleep.

Hi, I’m…….

I went to a Retirement Seminar last night to go over the retirement policies of the company where I work. They gave us a dinner and then went over our benefit package, so it was more or less a social setting. When I was introducing myself to the various people there, I kept on wanting to say “Hi I’m Diana L____ “, it took a conscious effort to say Don. I think it was because it was more of a social setting as apposed to a business setting, I am more comfortable as Diana in that type of environment.
It happened once before, I was on a business trip to our corporate headquarters and I was with a Project Engineer. We went out to dinner to meet the Vice President in charge of Engineering. Well the VP was late and we had a couple of drink, when he did should up, I stood and went to introduce myself to his wife saying, “Hi I’m Di…..” and biting my tongue to keep from saying Diana.
So I am looking forward to retirement when I can transition. However from what I learned from the seminar last night it will cost me dearly retiring that year early because of the plant shutdown. Because I will be 59 and not 60 and only 29 years with the company instead of 30. As a result I will pay 50% of the medical and dental insurance vs. 20% (If I was 60 with 30 years) and my pension will be reduced by a 0.5% for ever month before I’m 60 (6% a year). That Sucks!

Tuesday, October 03, 2006

Miss Elainie

Apple Harvest [a day late...oh, well]

1. Have you every picked apples?
I picked them off a neighbor’s tree when we were kids.

2. Have you every bobbed for apples?
Again when I was little, I don’t remember much about it other than I did bob for apples at least once.

3. What is your favorite apple desert?
Baked apples, stuffed with raisins and brown sugar, topped with vanilla ice cream.

4. What kind of apples do you prefer?
Any type, but I really like fresh apple cider or when it’s cold outside hot mulled cider (and possible just a touch of rum)

5. Do you believe that an “apple a day” keeps the doctor away?
No, but a glass of apple cider doesn’t hurt.

Monday, October 02, 2006

Land of Nod

Manic Monday

What is your ideal time to go to sleep at night?
10:30 – 11:00pm

If you had your choice, what time would you get up in the morning?
6:00 – 6:30am

How many pillows do you sleep with on your bed?
I have two and they are usually stacked on one another.

Are you particular about your bed sheets?
Not really, I learned about high thread count after I bought a couple of sets of sheets; my mother clued me in on it. But other than that I have no preference.

What size bed do you have? Is that the size of your choice?
King size. After most of my life sleeping on a twin, I wanted a bigger mattress one I could sleep on in any direction.

Questions for Week Number Thirty-Seven:

Curious as a Cat

What is the most powerful vision you've ever had?
I never had a vision.

Name one person you'd share a million-dollar lottery check with, and explain why.
My brother, because he always stood beside me.

Sunday, October 01, 2006

How Open?

You Are 49% Open

You are a fairly open person, but you also like to maintain your privacy.
You definitely will tell all (okay, almost all) to your closest friends...
But strangers and acquaintances only get a peek into your life.

Some of the questions just didn't seem to apply to me, like to morals question. Since I won’t do anything like that it didn’t make sense. Nor the one about money, I would never tell anyone how much I make but if they ask how much is the dress that I bought I would tell them.

Oh the Fun of Owning a House

It was pouring today here and I noticed on the ceiling in the dinning room there was a small damp spot.
I went up stairs and removed the access door to the crawl space, stuck my head up through the opening but the chimney is in the way to see where the leak is coming from. From what I could see, it appears that it might be coming from around the chimney flashing and since I own a Cape the roof is at 45 degree angle and it is two stories up in the front and three in the back.
So I guess it is time to call in a professional to crawl up in the crawl space and out on the roof to hunt around for the leak.

Sunday Seven - Episode 57

From "Packrick's Weekender" Blog

Name your favorite sports teams, and for the less sports-educated, be sure to indicate the sport with which they're associated.

Boy, is that a guy question! I don’t really have a favorite team, but if I had to pick I would say for baseball it is the “Boston Red Socks”. Where I live is halfway between New York and Boston and I don’t like the Yankees because they have so much money they can buy anyone they want.
I know one team that I would never root for is the New England Patriots, I call them the New England Traitors after what they did to Connecticut. They signed an agreement to move to Connecticut and then after we paid out millions to start to build a new stadium they walked away leaving us holding the bill. We had to sue them to get our money back.
As for other sports, I have no idea. I just don't follow sports.